Resting Times

I haven’t written anything but lists and two brief personal reflections since November 30th due to burnout from completing NaNoWriMo, and taking the month to exist and absorb has caused me to realize the overexertion I’ve been putting my mind and body through. Farm work and art work reconcile almost too easily, they’re collaborative, both …

Embattled in Insecurity

Low self worth, value, respect, confidence, this way of living is familiar, seemingly unavoidable. Most of life is riddled with tests of our self confidence. Some of us are born into insecurity and others have it thrust upon them by circumstance, all the same it leeches our energy reserves, our relationships, sabotages us, keeps us …

The Renegade Thought

My instincts usually order me to close down and build up my protection, but there are urges to disobey and leave myself vulnerable. We all have our habitual thought process and propensities. We also have those triple turncoat traitorous thoughts which actually lead us to a better way of being. Time and effort is needed …

10 Affirmations for Productivity

I deserve to feel pride for achieving any task regardless if it feels like an insignificant one, and I am proud of myself. If I cannot accomplish a task or use my time in a way I deem productive, I will not shame myself and I will be proud that I do not need to …

Talking About Resting

There is no right time to rest, our bodies tell us. We’ve been taught to ignore our needs for the sake of being ‘productive’. The value is placed upon what we can offer a capitalist system-- it’s time to un-normalize the exploitation of people who need rest the most. Responsibility falls upon all of us …

I Value My Time (and Other Affirmations)

I often need to remind myself of neglected truths. My skills are valuable, my time is precious, and I deserve respect. My free time is spent freeing myself, learning and creating. All time is free, we are forced into it. I’m not worth less because I’m disabled, or because I can’t work a 9-5 retail …

10 Affirmations Relating to Home

I have the power express discomfort, assert boundaries, and ask for help. I trust the universe to point me in the direction of home, and when I find it, I will recognize it. I trust myself to keep myself safe. I am working every day to create a comfortable, enriching, and secure home for myself. …

Xanthosis is Testing My Goals

Alchemy and its many forms have been a passion of mine since childhood. Some of you may know of psycho-spiritual or philosophical alchemy. These meditations and changes are a part of an entire lifestyle supporting growth and healing. I’ve spent the last half decade cycling through the phases of darkness and light, destruction and reconstruction, …

True to Yourself: My Path

We each have a journey that we’ve watched play out before us. Sometimes we neglect it, veer off course, but deep down we know where our soul is trying to lead us. In childhood we take our first steps. Someday we’ll take our last steps.  Many parts of my life have been lost to trauma …

The Faint Young Sun Paradox

In early times there wasn’t as much light output as we experience today. As with the earth's first days, we might look at our own life and remember when the sun never seemed to shine brightly upon us. These are cold memories but somehow not frozen, neither in substance nor in time. Reality’s laws are …