200th Post, What I’ve Learnt About: Writer’s Voice, Accessibility, Pretentious Bastards, and Taboo Topics

I began this blog later 2020 after struggling to speak or express myself through video. I was frustrated. My longtime agoraphobia was heightened by the pandemic but I had to time to be inspired, I had freedom to live and work within my own schedule, and I was busy with various projects. Unfortunately, I wasn't …

Alchemical Healing

Alchemy isn’t religious, though it can be. Alchemy isn’t magic, it can be, but inherently it’s a philosophy of healing. I’m an alchemist but use the term loosely— I’m well read on historical resources and engage in alchemical practices, but my whole practice as an esoteric practitioner exists without doctrine. I find it’s easiest to …

I Hide From People, I Hide From Myself

Where I go, when I do what I do, when I live how I live, where I go is here— inhabiting my body willingly. When I’m offering my effort to the world, I’m accepting the connection between my internal monologue and my physical flesh. I work with my hands. I’m here in my hands, my …

Symbols of Presentation

Our behaviour, dress, habits, these are born of reactions in our inner world. Our self perception and realm of authenticity is influenced and expressed by a set of external symbols— representations of more complex subjects. Eye contact is symbolic, wearing jewelry is symbolic, our accent, inflections, our routine, our addictions, these outwardly simple expressions reference …

The Substantial Presence of Love

Love is a potent experience of positive attachment. It is an intensity of being. A bond, a state, an emotion, a thought, an instinct, and much more, affection encompasses many ‘metaphysical substances’. It is a substance which fills these intangible but descriptive nouns, these words which become vessels for love to exist within. It is …

Poem and Thoughts About Clouds Over the Valley

Cumulus bundled mountain line / Our Appalachian remnants / Adorned by clouds built grand, enshrine / A reliant independence / Be celestial reflection in rupture / Bursting rolling hillscape / Scale the unstructured structure / Billowing, blooming, take shape / Air and water mine to climb / To find find footholds after stepping / Off the highest cliff

An Alchemist’s Shame

Pride is nearly a stranger to me and I know shame intimately. Science, art, and philosophy provide me structure for courage. Through courage, I might get to know pride. Shame still clings and attempts to interfere with my healing and growing and knowing of what I’m capable of. Shame carries embarrassment, self hatred, and hates …

Sacred Simplicity

Ornate thought compliments many topics but some states of mind are more conductive than others in the realm of self improvement.   I’m prone to lengthy in-depth rumination which ultimately brings me no conclusion. My opinions bear several definitions of productivity but above all else, I’m found asking myself, “Is this necessary? Does this sustain me? …

On Unity

All is one, one is all— you are a starfish. You are also me, writing these words, as you say the same ones in your head now, at this moment. You’re also shit. You’re also gold. What are the practical reasons behind believing in a cosmic unity? Life is fuller, but life is also easier …

Gratitude, a Foundation

The act of struggle has been taught to abandon gratitude, crisis informs us we cannot afford to be thankful. How can I possible accept my current situation? Wouldn’t that make me complacent? But I already was complacent with struggle, resigned. I was fearful of gratitude. To accept the gifts of life, I would need to …