Community and Loneliness

I’m never alone. Every inch of this world-home is inhabited. I have no enemies here, not all are friends but all are companions. Moss, ants, squirrels, humans, a lady bug falling from the sky with an awkward and elegant plunk against my notebook, I’m never alone. By some standards, my social life is dismal. I …

Being Kooky: My Progress

Some would say there’s psychological and metaphysical danger in speaking candidly of spiritual progress. Many in parallel paths to mine swear themselves to secrecy to preserve the integrity of their work. I’ve always walked the middle ground between keeping most gnosis to myself while sharing the truths which validate my experiences, attempting to share what …

Being Kooky: Friday 13th a Child is Born

We’ve all at one point been tinkerbell begging for believers. Feeling alone, our truths discarded, we grasp for scant glimmers of faith. We’re sustained on our own truth and the morsels of validation we find in far reaching corners of life. I have been this desperate beast so often that I forget it’s not me— …

two bittersweet nightshade, fifty clover, orchard grass, six ghosts, and four spirits

how many encircle you, apple tree, nowo’layers o’layers stack-side more,the core of your trunkcounting rings of a cross section,still-direction, to be so many things,if you can see, how many are we?togethered, apartedI trust only you, hope-thing of healingcount us for true, one may say oneI am— alone, but no—beings stand beside mebelow us as well, …

Alchemy of Self: Putrefaction Part 2

The fifth stage of death after pallor mortis, algor mortis, rigor mortis, and livor mortis, and the fifth stage of alchemical transmutation: putrefaction. Psychological transmutation is the same as any other and must follow the laws of nature— our body hosts our mind, and one day our body will rot and become dirt. We can …

Alchemy of Self: Putrefaction

While the beginning of this stage may feel like Caput Corvi and the shame ridden days of calcination all over again, our wisened mind can recognize these times as being full of life in death. We’re less than halfway through our transmutation of self— we must expect there to still be hindering thoughts and behaviours …

Finding Spirituality Through Our Values

Spirituality, the sibling of religion with its own individuality, is unique in its theosophical family. We may base religion on our morals through structure and doctrine whereas spirituality exists within us and is personalized to our own signature. Religious views may align with our values but spirituality is built from our values.  Consider institutes and …

Xanthosis is Testing My Goals

Alchemy and its many forms have been a passion of mine since childhood. Some of you may know of psycho-spiritual or philosophical alchemy. These meditations and changes are a part of an entire lifestyle supporting growth and healing. I’ve spent the last half decade cycling through the phases of darkness and light, destruction and reconstruction, …

True to Yourself: My Path

We each have a journey that we’ve watched play out before us. Sometimes we neglect it, veer off course, but deep down we know where our soul is trying to lead us. In childhood we take our first steps. Someday we’ll take our last steps.  Many parts of my life have been lost to trauma …

The Faint Young Sun Paradox

In early times there wasn’t as much light output as we experience today. As with the earth's first days, we might look at our own life and remember when the sun never seemed to shine brightly upon us. These are cold memories but somehow not frozen, neither in substance nor in time. Reality’s laws are …