The knees warn of overuse, dry joints, they creak / As the stomach growls of hunger ready to speak / A low sound in the lungs, a rattling voice to seek / Reprieve from smoke as the teeth spoke, they reek / And throb, the inner ears do wail, whine, and shriek
Decay is employed in various areas of alchemy, notably the beginning. That initial presentation is related but dissimilar to putrefaction— symbolically tied in destruction but of a different (spiritual) mechanical practice. The first is a sudden and drastic shift from perpetuation to change, as routines are shattered by the beginning of transmutation. In contrast, the … Continue reading The Time and Emotion of an Alchemist’s Putrefaction
Nothing I write has been appealing to me, even grateful as I am that I can finally move my dominant hand properly after spraining all three joints of my forefinger. It’s been a month and my mental health has been poorer than usual, but life is getting hectic and isn’t going to wait for me … Continue reading Is What It Is
I’m a disorganized person, a partially recovered hoarder, and I’m disabled. This adds up to some very unsavoury environments I’ve created around myself but in recent years I’ve made progress in leaps and bounds. Still, my apartment is rarely clean and when it is, it’s often short lived. But no longer am I sleeping on … Continue reading My Experience with Cleanliness
Metropolis may seem an antonym to nature, but despite the constructions of our stifling cities we’re more than capable of tapping into the creature of earth within. Our buildings and parking lots can’t keep plants and animals out. In a totalitarian garden, weeds may be considered pests. When walking down a city sidewalk though, a … Continue reading Connecting with Nature: City Living
Routines of everyday life are often riddled with roadblocks for people with disabilities. The range of obstacles is as vast as every person’s individual journey but there are basic systems of overcoming that can aid everyone. We as humans are diverse but connected in many ways, aspects of my life have been lived by many … Continue reading Disabled Motivation: Obstacles
As of late, my spirituality has been blocked by pain derived from my connection to the cosmos, divinity and the perpetual energy flow of reality so distant from me. My body and soul feel incapable of manifestation, conjuration, my psychotic gnotic beliefs are faint in my mind as I’m dampened by depression. Cotton fills my … Continue reading Connection to the Cosmos
Through depression and insecurity, we perceive our existence as as powerless. In treating ourselves with compassion and approaching our struggles with curiosity and hope, we decree the world that exists around us.
https://youtu.be/l_YRey43Pkk I must remember to build routine and dedicate energy to uplifting my self perception. Stagnation is the bane of my growth, but consistency is the glue holding the building blocks of my recovery together.
You don’t need hope in order to keep going. You need a stable relationship with hope in order to sustain growth, but when you’re in the thick of the fight and have never felt more hopeless, remember that you don’t need it. It’s not necessary. You never needed hope, and if there comes another time … Continue reading Relationships with a Hope: Nihilism
Sustaining Practice 