I Hide From People, I Hide From Myself

Where I go, when I do what I do, when I live how I live, where I go is here— inhabiting my body willingly. When I’m offering my effort to the world, I’m accepting the connection between my internal monologue and my physical flesh. I work with my hands. I’m here in my hands, my …

Reading and Listening (Exposing Yourself to the Outside)

Two halves of a whole, the inside and outside. We desire and require a stable relationship with both. There is an outside and an inside and the outside is on the inside and the inside in the outside, and they are both eternally separate and intertwined. Sometimes the balance becomes uneven and we isolate ourselves, …

Reconnecting the Mind and the Body

Everyone will have a moment where their mind and soul separate from their body. Many people will live much of their lives struggling to reconnect with their physical form, I’m one of them. Since I was a baby I’ve struggled to exist in my body and have required a plethora of skills to bring myself …

Disabled Motivation: Obstacles

Routines of everyday life are often riddled with roadblocks for people with disabilities. The range of obstacles is as vast as every person’s individual journey but there are basic systems of overcoming that can aid everyone. We as humans are diverse but connected in many ways, aspects of my life have been lived by many …

Extending Energy Outward

Usually the universe won’t come to you. Spiritual awakening must be worked toward, self understanding fought for. We walk toward the future. We extend our soul beyond our confines to drag what we need toward us. It’s difficult, we want to conserve our energy and keep ourselves internally protected but stagnancy only isolates and restricts …

Connection to the Cosmos

As of late, my spirituality has been blocked by pain derived from my connection to the cosmos, divinity and the perpetual energy flow of reality so distant from me. My body and soul feel incapable of manifestation, conjuration, my psychotic gnotic beliefs are faint in my mind as I’m dampened by depression. Cotton fills my …

Frozen: Acute and Longterm Dissociation

Stress and anxiety can petrify me, solidify me. I’m trapped in amber. Laying on the floor, hands idly moving, maybe I’m looking at something and I’ll keep looking. I won’t see but I’ll stare. Nothing around me is quantity. There is no mass. There’s no me. Objectality ceases as the freeze begins. There always has …