Alchemical Healing

Alchemy isn’t religious, though it can be. Alchemy isn’t magic, it can be, but inherently it’s a philosophy of healing. I’m an alchemist but use the term loosely— I’m well read on historical resources and engage in alchemical practices, but my whole practice as an esoteric practitioner exists without doctrine. I find it’s easiest to …

Psychological Healing: Experiences with the Alchemical Crow

We’ve all known catastrophe. The apocalypse exists within Caput Corvi, the symbol of a decapitated crow. Our internal reasoning cannot keep up with the crises of our circumstances. The crow forces us to change so that we may learn to begin doing so willingly. Patterns repeat, break, transform. Life is a series of cycles, some …

Resting Times

I haven’t written anything but lists and two brief personal reflections since November 30th due to burnout from completing NaNoWriMo, and taking the month to exist and absorb has caused me to realize the overexertion I’ve been putting my mind and body through. Farm work and art work reconcile almost too easily, they’re collaborative, both …

Embattled in Insecurity

Low self worth, value, respect, confidence, this way of living is familiar, seemingly unavoidable. Most of life is riddled with tests of our self confidence. Some of us are born into insecurity and others have it thrust upon them by circumstance, all the same it leeches our energy reserves, our relationships, sabotages us, keeps us …

Community and Loneliness

I’m never alone. Every inch of this world-home is inhabited. I have no enemies here, not all are friends but all are companions. Moss, ants, squirrels, humans, a lady bug falling from the sky with an awkward and elegant plunk against my notebook, I’m never alone. By some standards, my social life is dismal. I …

Time and I

This week is a difficult time for me but I’m appreciative of how much I’ve grown in a year. I’ve graduated from the person I used to be. Though I remain an anxious person, I’m more emotionally stable even when I’m not— I can move on, cope, gain control over myself from the hands of …

Being Recognized as You Are

As autistic and neurodivergent people, the ways we interact with the world are informed by how we’re perceived and how people react to us. This can be said of all human beings but being born into pre-established expectations we’ll never meet, social, emotional, educational, etc, involves a convoluted sense of self being projected onto us. …

Do Your Friends Uplift You?

Social bonds form stabilizing aspects of our lives when built correctly. Like any foundation, this support structure, if it’s terribly faulty then it will crumble upon weight and need to be rebuilt or repaired again and again. We must have a standard for how we’re treated and how we treat others. Are your friends making …

Codependency, Trauma, and Mental Illness

Interpersonal relationships are to be a source of self improvement practices, they ought to leave you feeling fulfilled, well rounded, and secure. These bonds need to be made sustainable if they should endure healthily for many years or a lifetime. Anyone will struggle with balancing relationships but people coping with mental illness or trauma can …

My Experience with Cleanliness

I’m a disorganized person, a partially recovered hoarder, and I’m disabled. This adds up to some very unsavoury environments I’ve created around myself but in recent years I’ve made progress in leaps and bounds. Still, my apartment is rarely clean and when it is, it’s often short lived. But no longer am I sleeping on …